I’ve oddly never felt as comfortable in my own skin as I do now.
That’s a big statement, isn’t it?! Reading it back, a twinge of a smile appears as I genuinely have never felt this good.
I spent years wanting to be thinner, wanting to be more fashionable and wanting to keep up with the crowds. I felt like I was always chasing a better version of myself. Not striving to be a better version of what I already was but striving to be different; someone I wasn’t.
It’s only now, 11 months postpartum I can finally say I fit. I can finally say with all honesty that I belong. I’m not thinner, I’m not more fashionable and I’m far too tired to keep up with any crowd! Ha! But I’ve stopped chasing and I’m now proud of who I am. I feel happy in my own skin… wobbly skin and all!
I think my recent holiday has made it clear just how much I have changed.
Rewind just 2 years ago to my honeymoon. I packed 4 pairs of shoes and 5 different clutch bags just for the evenings! Getting ready would be a thought-out and lengthy process so I could be the best version of myself before stepping outside the hotel room. And God forbid the wind blowing my 2-hour-styled hair out of place! Now, I’ve stopped caring quite as much about how I look. Of course, like anyone, I still want to look nice but getting ready now takes far less time than I could have ever imagined, and I genuinely feel better for it!
On my recent family holiday, I took 1 pair of evening shoes and no bags! It’s like a different person took my place, literally! But I now just feel happy being out with my little ‘gang’ and what I’m wearing doesn’t matter!
And the biggest change… make-up! I never thought I’d see the day where I went out without make-up on. But I’m sure I’m like most that you just loose the time for that over those first few months. The priority is grabbing a slice of toast and packing the baby bag in the hope to run out of the door as soon as your little one wakes from their nap so you can get to the soft play area before all your other mum friends (I need to stop calling them that as they’re just friends now full stop!) leave!
It’s time we all stopped being so hard on ourselves. Of course, I’m not saying don’t have a goal if you want to get back into shape after having a baby but give yourself a break and remember you are amazing for what you’ve done, what your body has done!
Looking at Austin he’s made me proud of my body, what it’s achieved. I’ve been through a lot of ups and downs throughout my parenting journey so far and gosh, I know it’s not going to get any easier.
But at least I can be easier, be kinder on myself.
This Is Me.
I’m a mum, a wife, a friend, a businesswoman and I’m proud of all those things.
I’m the best version of myself already… I’m ME!